This is where broken hearts go :p

Last year, I read and quoted this line from Eat, Pray Love:

Friday, March 22, 2013

Looking Forward :)

"Someday you’re gonna look back on this moment of your life as such a sweet time of grieving. You’ll see that you were in mourning and your heart was broken, but your life

was changing and you were in the best possible place in the world for it—in a beautiful place of worship, surrounded by grace. Take this time, every minute of it. 

Let things work themselves out..."

And finally, I am now looking back! For the past year, I filled my playlist with a clash of Avril Lavigne holding on and Katy Perry moving on songs, cried, volunteered, learned yoga and kickboxing, started working out, ran my first half marathon, registered for my next, played badminton, cycled to work, joined a dragon boat team (and first legit race next week! yay!), enrolled in a formal swimming lessons, learned new recipes, cooked for more than 10 people in countless gatherings, started drawing again, became a permanent employee, learned doing my own make up, climbed a  mountain, built deep friendships (looots of them), traveled (again! yahoo!), saved, chopped my hair (NOT recently after the heartbreak :p) and most of all, experienced God more than ever.

I am just jealous how those Thought Catalogue writers do their thing while all I can do is enumeration style. Mukhang uso naman siya. Hahaha. :)

True enough that the journey to being OK is a journey worth taking, and maaaaan, there is really more to life than love! Hahaha! :)

The amazing journey in photos :)

Embracing my color ;)

Growing up, I was always told that I can't wear red, yellow, yellow green, orange or anything bright and neon because of my skin color. E bagay naman pala saken. :p

peg ;)

on being 27

This was supposed to be a blog post for my 28th birthday, na hindi ko natapos. so towards the end of the post, wala ng kwento and pictures. I published this for the sake of panghihinayang. hahahaha

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in a few days birthday ko na! and bago ako mag goodbye 27 and say hello to 28, flashback muna, bilang hindi ako nakagawa ng 2012 year ender post! :p

nung 26th birthday ko, i remember doing this collage to look back on my year as a 25-year old human being. and every time i look at this photo, i can't help but smile and be grateful of how wonderful that year was!

  

kung mapapansin niyo, halos parang puro goodtime pinagagawa ko nun, and i realized, yun yung year na nagstart ako i-enjoy yung sarili kong sweldo after ilang years ng pagiging workaholic slash breadwinner slash patay na bata. ;)

kung anong dinami ng lakwatsa at pag-eenjoy ko nung 25 and 26 years old ako, ganun naman ang dami ng adult problems na na-experience ko the past year. huling travel experience ko na ay nung May 2012 sa Puerto Princesa at El Nido! namiss ko yata talaga ang stress at di ako sanay ng matagal na nasa comfort zone.

so ito na, when i was 27 years old...

i started living on my own - yes! after 6 years of commuting from Caloocan to Makati, pinayagan na rin ako ng parents kong mag-rent sa Makati with friends. from 2 hours of travel, naging 10-minute walk na lang ang layo ng bahay ko sa office! my first ever housemates!

i became a tita! - at first, disappointing ang news dahil unexpected, pero the happiness that this baby boy brought to our family is priceless! sad lang that i didn't get to witness his baby milestones. in case, i would've spoiled him na super magagalit na saken parents niya. haha :) aaaaw i miss this little boy so much... i remember nung paalis na ako after the first time i visited him in Pampanga, iyak ako nang iyak because of separation anxiety! hahaha.

i learned how to cook - yes! i have the talent pala like papa! i knew it! i have a right to be a food critique after all kase marunong talaga ako magluto by heart! tamad lang ako the past 26 years. hahaha. and oh the joy when someone says masarap luto ko? one word. kilig. :)

3 events na nagluto ako ng bongga at nasabihan na masarap luto ko! ;)

we lost nanay - must be the most painful thing that happened to our family last year. and i am crying right now! hahaha. i don't want to remember how much she suffered during the last days of her life, instead, i will forever be inspired of how Nanay lived a selfless life for her children and grandchildren. i miss you Nay! Namiss ko na masahe mo saken saka pag nireremind mo ako na dalhin payong, jacket at baon ko bago ko umalis na bahay. Happy Mother's day in heaven! :)

i fell in love again - i sort of watched the cursor blink for 5 minutes here. hahaha, after years of highschool-level-kilig-less life, na-experience ko ulit makarelate sa mga love songs, mangawit ang cheekbones sa kakangiti mag-isa, ma-excite pag tumutunog ang celphone and more. :) sorry, no pictures :p

my heart got bent - sabi nga ni adele, sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead. ang bilis ng turnover ng events. hehe. and because i can't talk about it in details, i'll just share an excerpt of a book that i read recently. talagang hinand-written ko to always remind me of the lessons i learned from that experience every time nag iinarte ako. hehe. :)

i've had adult problems - after a couple of years of enjoying, i got worried na masyado na akong tumatagal sa comfort zone ko. nahihiya ako i-share tong dilemma na 'to sa ibang tao, haha, most of the people i know, namomroblema kase nahihirapan sila, ako naman nagrereklamo kase masyado akong komportable. dahil diyan, gumawa ako ng mga bagay na poproblemahin ko. hahaha. i remember, sobrang daming sleepless nights and prayers para mag weigh ng mga bagay bagay. at least until now wala naman akong pinagsisisihan sa mga choices na ginawa ko. hmmm... siguro not because i made the right decision, pwedeng mali, pwedeng tama, siguro dahil attitude ko lang panindigan whatever i chose for myself at hindi manghinayang at maging bitter sa mga what-might-have-beens. :)

i left IHG - siguro one of the most difficult decisions i made the past year was to leave IHG. madami ngang nagtataka na umalis ako kase i seemed so happy with the company. and i truly was! i love the people, the culture, the work-life balance, my work, my bosses, the free travels ;) the huge hotel discounts, lahat!

i became an OFW

i met a loooot of new friends

i met the kuya's i never had
remember 7th Heaven? I was so jealous of Lucy having Matt. And here in Singapore, I met loooots of them. :)

i learned how to swim
well sort of. di ko pa rin kaya iligtas ang sarili ko sa malalim na tubig. hahaha. pero nakaka lapse na ako sa pool! haha.

i designed my own room!

i got the taste of how to be unhappy - siguro kung may quarter life crisis yung ibang tao, ito yung 1/3 life crisis ko. if there's such a term. hehe. minsan i just feel like crying. pero at least i get to reflect, i get to see if there's something wrong with my life and get to do something about it. so if you're a close friend, and you're reading this, i am not yet fine, but i will get better soon. so don't worry :)

The Ultimate Moving On Song ;)

I'm quite addicted to thoughtcatalog.com lately and I stumbled upon this post this morning:

http://thoughtcatalog.com/2013/8-perfect-songs-to-help-you-get-over-it/

and because I have a very wide music genre, wala akong alam sa mga sinabi niya sa list.

For me, this is still the ultimate moving on song. I love the positivity. Walang halong bitterness. :) Parang minsan gusto ko siyang gawan ng music video with matching lipad lipad ng buhok at wagayway ng kamay. hahaha :)

"You've taught me everything from falling in love to letting go of a lie" pak na pak :p

                       

something positive naman. :) 5 times ko na 'to pinapanood in the last 4 hours at natatouch pa rin ako. :)

But still something was missing. So I said "Lord, make her happy." and she met you.

All together now! Aaaaaw :)

i'm not even sure if i'd be able to publish this or remain as one of my gazillion draft posts that i didn't get to finish.

i was once told "hassle malungkot"

and that's all i wanted to say.

Looking Forward :)

"Someday you’re gonna look back on this moment of your life as such a sweet time of grieving. You’ll see that you were in mourning and your heart was broken, but your life was changing and you were in the best possible place in the world for it—in a beautiful place of worship, surrounded by grace. Take this time, every minute of it. Let things work themselves out..."